A random guy expressing his random feelings

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A random guy expressing his random feelings - XanaxHeister - Feb 14, 2019

Trigger Warning ---> A depressed teen expressing his life

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I'm in a constant rage. Everything I consider doing I fail like shit. I'm 18 years old and I don't know what to do with my life. I'm trying to read some books about how to get rich (Poor Dad, Rich Dad) and stuff, that's probably because I'm really lazy and tries get the easy way, as I've been told to. My mother abandoned everything in our poor country 7 years ago so we can come here in France to let me expand. Get smarter and a better outlook on life. She's spending nearly half her paycheck to pay personal teachers to learn me better maths, french and stuff, but I still fail. I make her cry and disappoint her, because I'm lazy and don't want to do anything but playing video games and watching Netflix. I'm trying to focus to learn my lesson but I can't, even if I tried going to the town's library to learn there. I tried to make some money by myself, through dropshipping or e whoring, but I fail. I can't find a job at the moment cause I have school. I hate school. Being kind to others, and you're still lonely. I share opinions with no one. Just small talks, the small fucking useless talks. I'm in love constantly. Every year I propose to one girl at least, and I've done that 7 years. I got rejected 7 times, but still I manage to gain confidence after each rejection. People tell me that I walk with confidence and stuff, but what they didn't tell me is that I lose confidence when I'm starting to talk. A hot chick in my class seemed interested in me at the beginning of the year, you know that moment when you know nobody so you don't talk much. She thought my confidence is sexy. I started to open up a bit to the people and started talking. At that fucking very moment, she turned off. Now I'm the only in love with her and she seems uninterested. Great. One time, I remember, I was so fed up talking to people, that I faked a loss of voice. I'm between the constant need of attention, but I hate when I only get small talks. I'm sure you understand what I mean. A depressed tee... or young adult. I'm writing this at my school library, lost in thoughts, browsing on HF between about funny stories on the Lounge and money making methods, still undecided of what I m going to do in the future. I'm writing this maybe because I'm looking for attention, and I don't know how to get it, or just maybe I'm not okay in my head.

I don't need your ''you gonna make it, just keep grinding'', or ''follow this course to get more socially succesful'' or even the ''go to the gym'.
I appreciate the advices, but I don't feel they help me.

RE: A random guy expressing his random feelings - Terror - Feb 14, 2019

Go work and maybe you'll find the girl that will make your world happy and she will change how you will live for now on. You are too young to give up and be depressed about life already you haven't hit the age where you actually have to work hard for your family and thinking if you can provide care and food for them

RE: A random guy expressing his random feelings - LoveOverFear - Feb 14, 2019

First comment here is the correct answer.

If you have no goals or ambitions, the best bet is to just find a potential mate and go from there, give her the world and she will give it back.

Yep 😉

RE: A random guy expressing his random feelings - Nachfolger - Feb 14, 2019

You propose to a new girl ever year for the past 7 years, what? Your wounds are self inflicted. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, no one else feels sympathy for you. Give yourself meaning, and everything else will follow.

RE: A random guy expressing his random feelings - Playboy - Feb 14, 2019

You're too young to be worrying about have a girlfriend! You should be focused on building your career foundation first and then worrying about that stuff later. Trust me, once you build some ground and get your life together a woman will come into it and want to stay because you're structurally sound!

RE: A random guy expressing his random feelings - Playboy - Feb 14, 2019

My internet is acting very bad right now I truly didn't mean to triple post!

RE: A random guy expressing his random feelings - Playboy - Feb 14, 2019

On my end it showed I wasn't posting at all! I apologize for the inconvenience!!

RE: A random guy expressing his random feelings - Shelob - Feb 14, 2019

You're still 18 years old, you have life ahead of you remember that what doesnt kill you it just makes you stronger

Life have ups and downs, if you think you'll have the perfect life always and by your side, you already failed

And don't focus on love right now, it just kills you slowly if it didn't go right as you planned

RE: A random guy expressing his random feelings - Playboy - Feb 14, 2019

(Feb 14, 2019 06:32 AM)Shelob Wrote: You're still 18 years old, you have life ahead of you remember that what doesnt kill you it just makes you stronger

Life have ups and downs, if you think you'll have the perfect life always and by your side, you already failed

And don't focus on love right now, it just kills you slowly if it didn't go right as you planned

This guy hit the nail on the head.
Trust me life gets harder from here and you must learn to cope with it otherwise you'll drown when you should be swimming.

RE: A random guy expressing his random feelings - Malicious - Feb 14, 2019

I kinda understand you, But I will give you the same advice I give myself.

Keep working and try to improve yourself.

You could also try to get a job with something you like instead of following what everyone else wants you to do.

Also life has it's up and downs, you will be depressed, sad and happy at some point in your life.

Everything will get better. I can promise you that.