[Mr.Cat]

Unfortunately having Bi-Polar, PTSD, Anxiety, Depression and BPD. It's not a state of mind I can seem to find.

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See and I parrot this to others, the problem for me is I never get a chance to breathe before another hit comes. as I write this I'm desperately trying to get someone out to fix my AC as it's 100+ outside today.

If my ac is broken I'm fugged, I don't have money to get a new one. it's just another EPIC gut punch from the world it seems I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop.

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I've had a lot of people suggest Mushroom Theraphy however I'm in intense behavioral therapy in an attempt to see the world less black and white, wrong and right and more, Optimistically and With impulse control something Bi-Polar patients struggle with greats.

Stability

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I appreciate the irony of the situation and absolutely see the world trying desperately to reach me, it just seems the hole I'm in is just out of reach of someone's hand.

However I know I must strive on, forward in an attempt to hope and be better. The better days as it will, I just wonder if success is in the cards for everyone.

You are talking to a guy with Dyslexia, ADHD, Bipolar, BPD found on him in the past and who the fk knows what else. I am not the world, i am just a guy talking to a guy. Forget all these tittles man. When these things control you they become problems and disorders but when you do, they see you as a genius. Isn't it weird? The reality is they dont really know what the problem is. But one thing is for sure, no matter what you have, if you follow what brings you happiness, you will be fine. There is no race man. This is why its fair for everyone, because you are not competing with anymore. Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. Don't you see that YOU need to define what success means to YOU and not let somebody else define it for you? Happiness is success, it doesnt matter what it is or where it is for YOU, because its different for everyone. So what if you get a big house but its empty?

[Laughing Man]

You are talking to a guy with Dyslexia, ADHD, Bipolar, BPD found on him in the past and who the fk knows what else. I am not the world, i am just a guy talking to a guy. Forget all these tittles man. When these things control you they become problems and disorders but when you do, they see you as a genius. Isn't it weird? The reality is they dont really know what the problem is. But one thing is for sure, no matter what you have,  if you follow what brings you happiness, you will be fine. There is no race man. This is why its fair for everyone, because you are not competing with anymore. Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. Don't you see that YOU need to define what success means to YOU and not let somebody else define it for you? Happiness is success, it doesnt matter what it is or where it is for YOU, because its different for everyone. So what if you get a big house but its empty?

I guess i've always strived for the success my father said I should seek.

[Mr.Cat]

I guess i've always strived for the success my father said I should seek.

I feel like its not just that.. I feel like because you want to be valued in the eyes of others you want to be successful in the way they define success to appreciate you

[fredo]

You are talking to a guy with Dyslexia, ADHD, Bipolar, BPD found on him in the past and who the fk knows what else. I am not the world, i am just a guy talking to a guy. Forget all these tittles man. When these things control you they become problems and disorders but when you do, they see you as a genius. Isn't it weird? The reality is they dont really know what the problem is. But one thing is for sure, no matter what you have,  if you follow what brings you happiness, you will be fine. There is no race man. This is why its fair for everyone, because you are not competing with anymore. Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. Don't you see that YOU need to define what success means to YOU and not let somebody else define it for you? Happiness is success, it doesnt matter what it is or where it is for YOU, because its different for everyone. So what if you get a big house but its empty?

I feel this, like seriously stop with all the titles. Can you function without meds and be physically ok? I feel like with mental illness in general there's people that are completely gone & out there due to real chemical imbalances in their brain. With depression, anxiety, bpd the first two are literally just titles for normal feelings that are happening more then normal because of stuff going on in your life. If you had the perfect life, would you be depressed or anxious? Doctors wanna label people and throw medicines at them to get paid, when really without them your fine anyways. BPD is such a weird condition I've met multiple people with the disorder and I just fucking swear it's such a vague condition that they are slapping on so many people with other mental health issues. The inpatient therapy for BPD is just so weird it left anyone I saw do it questioning if they even had that illness. You should try mushrooms, I did and I realized the things I said above, mental illness in general is just weird. If everything works fine up there it's up to you to choose happiness and do the right thing everyday. You both seem like very smart people

(Sorry if some of thats off base or doesnt apply to you )