Apr 25, 2017 02:13 PM
(This post was last modified: Apr 25, 2017 02:24 PM by Atterrorized.)
Hello, HF, unfortunetely I relapsed on LSD last Thursday, later visiting the hospital. So, last Thursday I went through a complete derealisation on LSD, more like an ego-death and I did really stupid acts, stalking people, hitting on cars, invading lawns, tried to jump off a bridge, etcetra. I still do not remember that day entirely. Supposedly I messed with the wrong people multiple times on that day, and I feel that I am not prepared to deal with all those issues that I can face really probably. I am in a shit ton of anxiety and I feel like I do not want to even leave my room, I feel like changing schools and change my social circle completely, I have done a lot of damage already. I have messed with drug dealers, really known streets thugs, all the bad people. I have done many mistakes that make me go on people's "hitlists", and it fucking sucks, some I do not even deserve, just people being oversensitive. I need some advice, I hope what I said makes sense, and I will specify more if asked. I only took LSD because of this school in the first place.
You took the LSD. You did the actions. You face the responsibilities.
If you can't do LSD without being a moron then you either need a trip sitter or a lower dose.
(Apr 25, 2017 02:26 PM)unknown2me Wrote: You took the LSD. You did the actions. You face the responsibilities.
If you can't do LSD without being a moron then you either need a trip sitter or a lower dose.
I won't take it anymore, I am now under treatment. My parents caught me by the way, so I wouldn't do it again, it will cause more clusterfuck. What do you think that I should do to avoid this anxiety and fear towards school? Do you think that I should face the same school environment again or just change my environment completely due to all the tension? I mean by changing schools. What seems more logical?
Just tell anyone you fucked with that you were tripping the fuck out on LSD.
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(Apr 25, 2017 04:34 PM)Atterrorized Wrote: I won't take it anymore, I am now under treatment. My parents caught me by the way, so I wouldn't do it again, it will cause more clusterfuck. What do you think that I should do to avoid this anxiety and fear towards school? Do you think that I should face the same school environment again or just change my environment completely due to all the tension? I mean by changing schools. What seems more logical?
As harsh as it sounds it's also as real as it gets...
2 choices:
Be a pussy and just change schools.
Apologise, explain and get back to normal life.
(I'd choose the latter, worst that can happen is you take a punch... Overcoming your anxiety in this situation will help give you insight if you get it again)
Apr 25, 2017 05:05 PM
(This post was last modified: Apr 25, 2017 05:13 PM by Atterrorized.)
(Apr 25, 2017 04:38 PM)unknown2me Wrote: As harsh as it sounds it's also as real as it gets...
2 choices:
Be a pussy and just change schools.
Apologise, explain and get back to normal life.
(I'd choose the latter, worst that can happen is you take a punch... Overcoming your anxiety in this situation will help give you insight if you get it again)
I mean, before this thing I have had problems, and going on LSD and going full retarded made me mess with the same people I have messed with in the past. So I have no excuse, I am keeping my enemies close to me, even closer than before.Now I can get the living shit beaten out of me, it is like I can't live calmly. The thing is that I live this pressure every day of school, I get dirty looks all the fucking time, now how worse can it be? After all this shit. I completely agree with your "harsh" opinion, I am being a pussy in a certain way, but I tell you this because if I took the first choice I am being smarter but I am ignoring the things I have done and I am leaving things unsolved, taking the second one I am taking a big risk and I am in a environment that I am not suited in. So it is hard for me because both have many cons. To finish, I am not going against you, I really appreciate your concern.
(Apr 25, 2017 04:34 PM)grady Wrote: Just tell anyone you fucked with that you were tripping the fuck out on LSD.
?? Of course, for my friends it is easy, but for my enemies that I fucked with and don't know what I did for sure, I have distorted memories, and because I have no witnesses if they come up to me to beat my ass I have no idea how to explain myself, I do not even remember them. I have to find a way.
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