[Cooligan]

Posting for awareness. Keep tabs on some of your HF friends, especially those who openly do the "not healthiest" of activities.

Out of nowhere things can change in a flash and that 5 year long friend you had, well they're just gone. This has happened to me personally on HF three, if not four separate times. (possibly more as I just haven't seen some people) I currently cannot get a hold of @Spade (previously @Haze) and haven't been able to for a long time now, so for all I know he could be that fourth as I know the topic and drug in which our friendship started from isn't the best..

Anyway, I'd like to take this time to say goodbye and honor those who were once very prominent members of the forum, especially the Vices section, aka, the Vices Family.. <3
Just think about how many times you see your forum friends in your favorite section, whether it's The Lounge, Gaming, Groups, Hacking, etc.. But then add heavy drug use, that's what you get with the Vices Family. A great family to have because of the experiences you can share and the closeness of the friendships and bonds you can make, however blatantly, you just never know what can happen..

R.I.P and a loving farewell to some of those who did it best <3:

R.I.P to Haze (later known as Spade) - You weren't doing so well the last time we talked, in fact it was pretty bad both health and using wise. Your HF account is gone and you were ub3r so I'm not sure why.. If it is the worst case scenario though, RIP Devin.. You were the best friend I ever made on HF to date and always will be. As always, I love you Devin. <3 If for some reason I'm wrong and you see this, PLEASE get a hold of me.



R.I.P to A$VP - One of the realest dudes I met on HF and in Vices. I fucking lose myself every time I see your signature homie.. :'(
I never would have expected that one day I wouldn't see you clowning dummies, your real ass attitude, or just your overall presence in Vices. Miss you bro, playing some Rocky for you right now..
Spoiler (Click to View)https://hackforums.net/member.php?action...&uid=71633

R.I.P to BMO - By far one of the most knowledgeable guys to ever touch the Vices section, was a highly prominent Vices member. Worst part is, you and A$VP went out around the same time..
https://hackforums.net/member.php?action...uid=739488

R.I.P to Krizzly - I didn't know you as well as the others, but nonetheless knew you and am happy you were a part of the Vices family. You were especially special to BMO.

Farewell my friends...

[Regulus]

Awww man.
You have a heart of gold <3

That's why I love you.
Rest in peace to all the HF comrades that has passed :/

[Xen]

This is a lovely post.

RIP to all members that have passed and I hope the families are doing well.

[SIM-2327840]

That made me emotional man. Ive had similar things happened in my life too. My condolences. We should always cut it before it cut us, whatever this may be. Unfortunately many people have to die a bit to feel alive.

[Rigel]

This is heartbreaking for me to read. I’m so sorry Cooligan that you’ve had to endure this, I hope those members finally found peace.

Edited: oops my bad

[Cooligan]

Awww man.
You have a heart of gold <3

That's why I love you.
Rest in peace to all the HF comrades that has passed :/

Ah I love you too brotha

Absolutely. Rest in peace to all the lost ones we grow close to along the way..

This is a lovely post.

RIP to all members that have passed and I hope the families are doing well.

Thank you man, I appreciate that.

Me too. You always feel so bad for the mothers especially. :/

That made me emotional man. Ive had similar things happened in my life too. My condolences. We should always cut it before it cut us, whatever this may be. Unfortunately many people have to die a bit to feel alive.

Bro.. not even gonna lie what you said at the end "Unfortunately many people have to die a bit to feel alive."

I haven't related to something so fucking hard in a long time.. :'/
Straight hit me in my gut. One of the truest statements I've read in a while.

+3 to you for understanding.

This is heartbreaking for me to read. I’m so sorry Cooligan that you’ve had to endure this, I hope those members finally found peace.

Edited: oops my bad

Your spelling error of my name actually made me laugh when I was feeling so down after posting this, so don't apologize haha. <3

And yes, we pray for their family members.

[ririki]

And I really wonder where eccy is...

https://hackforums.net/member.php?action...id=3765686

[Cooligan]

And I really wonder where eccy is...

https://hackforums.net/member.php?action...id=3765686

Looks like he was last active 7/30/2018

When was the last time you spoke with him?

[ririki]

Looks like he was last active 7/30/2018

When was the last time you spoke with him?

Yeah around that time.
He completely disappeared from everywhere.

[Crimin4L]

Reading this actually got me really depressed :,( Cause there are so many friends that I've made throughout the years and have no contact with any of them. HF used to be such a prominent forum but sadly over the years it has just fallen off, and a lot of them old HQ members that we remember may not ever come back. I pray for that the reason is anything other than death but sadly like you said a lot of us had things going on off this forum.

But OP keep a positive mindset and pray for those you used to be close with, pray that they are okay and with the best for them. You can only wonder and hope that it didn't go down that road. Did you ever think some of them could've gotten locked up? Could be a sad possibility but better than dealth.

As for me, I am still here. Maybe not as active as I used to be but still here :D 7 years and every drug later :/

[A Powerade]

I hate seeing things like this. It's such a shame to see how many have fallen and I deeply hope they rest well, as well as their families having closure.

[123]

Life is very unpredictable. I hope all those comrades you mentioned above are doing fine and just locked in some real life shit and hopefully would come back sooner or later.

[SoulZeh]

Known you for a good while now Cooligan and from what I've spoken to you, you seem like such a down to earth dude, lovely thread also bud.

Pretty heartbreaking too.

[duplex]

Somewhat inspiring that people care in such a dark point in my life, thank you.

[Cooligan]

Yeah around that time.
He completely disappeared from everywhere.

Was he into any BH activities online that might instead be the explanation of his disappearance?

Just trying to think of other possibilities as to what may have happened. I actually remember that name too.

Reading this actually got me really depressed :,( Cause there are so many friends that I've made throughout the years and have no contact with any of them. HF used to be such a prominent forum but sadly over the years it has just fallen off, and a lot of them old HQ members that we remember may not ever come back. I pray for that the reason is anything other than death but sadly like you said a lot of us had things going on off this forum.

But OP keep a positive mindset and pray for those you used to be close with, pray that they are okay and with the best for them. You can only wonder and hope that it didn't go down that road. Did you ever think some of them could've gotten locked up? Could be a sad possibility but better than dealth.

As for me, I am still here. Maybe not as active as I used to be but still here :D 7 years and every drug later :/

That's the thing, 3 out of the 4 members listed in the thread have 100% in fact passed away. A$VP, BMO, and Krizzly have been confirmed to all have passed as shitty as it sounds. Everyone including myself that is listed in the OP besides BMO is a heroin addict. We made sure to check every avenue possible.

I feel you man, definitely do. I can't say every drug, but the majority of them yeah.

I hate seeing things like this. It's such a shame to see how many have fallen and I deeply hope they rest well, as well as their families having closure.

And they're just the ones I was friends with, never mind the actual percentage of members from over the years..

Just too fucking young.

Life is very unpredictable. I hope all those comrades you mentioned above are doing fine and just locked in some real life Clay Davis and hopefully would come back sooner or later.

Unfortunately they're not. As mentioned above 3 out of 4 of them are confirmed deceased. A$VP, BMO, and Krizzly have all indeed passed away. Haze is the only one I'm somewhat unsure of, however seeing his account was ub3r and that he didn't scam or anything like that, I can't possibly think of why his account would be FULLY deleted..

Known you for a good while now Cooligan and from what I've spoken to you, you seem like such a down to earth dude, lovely thread also bud.

Pretty heartbreaking too.

Thank you so much SoulZeh, I really appreciate the kind words brother.

I'm not gonna lie either, almost ever since I first signed up for HF you were always one of the members that I looked up to man. I'm sure if you showed me the avatars you've had over the years that I would be able to pick out the one I remember seeing you with most. So this is especially appreciated from you.

Somewhat inspiring that people care in such a dark point in my life, thank you.

Oh bro, we care SO much about our fellow addicts, ESPECIALLY in real life.

I've lost close to 15 people just irl in my life, 5 of which in the past 2 years alone. It seems like as I get older, I can't go a full year without having to bury a friend..and the last two have been good fucking friends, one was practically family.

Some people may think that addicts are just people who could careless about anyone but themselves, and whilst that's very true, it's not true for everyone and even for the people that seem like they don't care about anything, deep inside they're soft as puppy sh!t and just want someone to put their arms around them and just say that everything is going to be okay..