Hello randoms(hope no one gets hurt from that word).We are all randoms in some point in our life.Enough bullshit lets talk about me.This diary will be about my life that i want to change.Excuse my english it is not my native language i might sound dumb lol.I am UOENO and i am happy to meet all of you.High school droput with not much sucess in life despite being high elo LOL player and gamer.I am tired of wasting my fcking life i want to get back into training in the gym to be the focused person i was before.Finish my studying and take a new step in life.Becoming the person i want to be with not a single regret.I always did not care what people say but now i am just fcking insecure.Thread named after a ZYZZ video hope OGs find it :P.
Day fcking 1
Since i gained alot of weight fucking 20 kilos i am about at 100 105 kgm with probably 20 % bodyfat.Have some muscle trained for 5 years straight abused roids now i am at the bottom starting from 0.It will be a fun journey or a massive failure.The reason i make this diary is to fcking motivate you and myself at the same time.Nothing is impossible in this life.
woke up this morning 98 kgm without eating LOL
At the moment i got a flu from I DONT FKCING KNOW.Went outside twice and got it.My Immune system sucks at the moment same for my eating habbits.Messed up alot myself in the past 2 years.
Will start counting calories soon first let me fix my eating habbits.I am hungry all the time might aswell bulk to 120 kgm and drop dead LOL.Nah joking i am not functional at the moment on that weight.Life is kinda shit when your body is not in condition when it was in the past.
Meal 1 Oatmeal yoghurt banana.Time for Meal 2 i wonder what it will be maybe eggs and some sort of vegies with a slice of whole wheat bread.Budget atm is low.I need to stop being a lazy random dog and fcking go cook my meals for the day.Maybe Meal 3 some sort of rice vegies and meat prolly chicken.Meal 4 will be probably the same.Meal 5 some cottage cheese with something maybe potatoes or like whole wheat bread.Meals might change but for now this is the plan.5 meals and some water.I have problem drinking fucking water like i am so inconsistent with it.One step at a time later i will go out for a walk since i am still sick taking fcking pills.I have no energy for whatsoever.Need to fix my sleep schedule to wake up as early as possible going to the gym.Dont want anyone to see me training must be a fcking secret so i can focus.No friends nothing can help you at this point in life only you and discipline.In the free time i will try to learn coding and ewhoring.I am like a fcking rat at the moment
No money no people around me might get a third tier job in a shop or something i dont fcking know still.
Looking forward to post here everyday.I dont know if this is the right place hope it is.
P.s Will keep you updated what is going on going to cook atm.My kitchen fcking sucks i hate being there its like super cold old but we gotta do what we have to do in order to have what we want.One more reason to keep going!
Day fcking 1
Since i gained alot of weight fucking 20 kilos i am about at 100 105 kgm with probably 20 % bodyfat.Have some muscle trained for 5 years straight abused roids now i am at the bottom starting from 0.It will be a fun journey or a massive failure.The reason i make this diary is to fcking motivate you and myself at the same time.Nothing is impossible in this life.
woke up this morning 98 kgm without eating LOL
At the moment i got a flu from I DONT FKCING KNOW.Went outside twice and got it.My Immune system sucks at the moment same for my eating habbits.Messed up alot myself in the past 2 years.
Will start counting calories soon first let me fix my eating habbits.I am hungry all the time might aswell bulk to 120 kgm and drop dead LOL.Nah joking i am not functional at the moment on that weight.Life is kinda shit when your body is not in condition when it was in the past.
Meal 1 Oatmeal yoghurt banana.Time for Meal 2 i wonder what it will be maybe eggs and some sort of vegies with a slice of whole wheat bread.Budget atm is low.I need to stop being a lazy random dog and fcking go cook my meals for the day.Maybe Meal 3 some sort of rice vegies and meat prolly chicken.Meal 4 will be probably the same.Meal 5 some cottage cheese with something maybe potatoes or like whole wheat bread.Meals might change but for now this is the plan.5 meals and some water.I have problem drinking fucking water like i am so inconsistent with it.One step at a time later i will go out for a walk since i am still sick taking fcking pills.I have no energy for whatsoever.Need to fix my sleep schedule to wake up as early as possible going to the gym.Dont want anyone to see me training must be a fcking secret so i can focus.No friends nothing can help you at this point in life only you and discipline.In the free time i will try to learn coding and ewhoring.I am like a fcking rat at the moment
No money no people around me might get a third tier job in a shop or something i dont fcking know still.
Looking forward to post here everyday.I dont know if this is the right place hope it is.
P.s Will keep you updated what is going on going to cook atm.My kitchen fcking sucks i hate being there its like super cold old but we gotta do what we have to do in order to have what we want.One more reason to keep going!



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