[Livewire]

Life is bad.

Not  sure which direction I even wanna go at this point.

I've accepted long ago that I've failed at this life. I would never repeat it once even if I had the opportunity.

Life really isn't fair, and thats a fact. We are not created equal .

I'm super tired. I wouldn't kill myself but I haven't lived for a long time.


I ain't even salty. It is what it is.


I have way too much on my plate. I'm not even hungry.

You can give me and happy motivational shit you want, but I'm not for it. I got dealt a shit hand from the beginning and plenty after.

[Motusora]

when im tired , i go to beach alone in day , or to top of the mountain at night .
i just sit, relax, feel the wind, listen to music then continue with my day tomorrow .

everyone gets tired, but still life's great and full of surprises .
it would be so boring if everyone's created equal.

[Livewire]

when im tired , i go to beach alone in day , or to top of the mountain at night .
i just sit, relax, feel the wind, listen to music then continue with my day tomorrow .

everyone gets tired, but still life's great and full of surprises .
it would be so boring if everyone's created equal.

I'm tired of trying to get ahead. I'd much rather die stupid drunk and unaware of everything around me.

[Nostre]

Life is bad.

Not  sure which direction I even wanna go at this point.

I've accepted long ago that I've failed at this life. I would never repeat it once even if I had the opportunity.

Life really isn't fair, and thats a fact. We are not created equal .

I'm super tired. I wouldn't kill myself but I haven't lived for a long time.


I ain't even salty. It is what it is.


I have way too much on my plate. I'm not even hungry.

You can give me and happy motivational shit you want, but I'm not for it. I got dealt a shit hand from the beginning and plenty after.

They say you accepted your life and the obstacles prior to choosing your vessel. You know that quote “God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing, he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it”. Now with that being said, I never read the bible, don't plan on it nor am I religious but I do believe anything thrown at us is a test that we must complete, regardless of how long it'll take us. If you feel yourself hitting a brick wall, use that wall to lean on it and catch your breath rather than stopping and turning around.

I too got dealt a shit fucking hand in life, but I know I picked this vessel knowing nobody could handle the number of things I went through.

[Livewire]

They say you accepted your life and the obstacles prior to choosing your vessel. You know that quote “God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing, he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it”. Now with that being said, I never read the bible, don't plan on it nor am I religious but I do believe anything thrown at us is a test that we must complete, regardless of how long it'll take us. If you feel yourself hitting a brick wall, use that wall to lean on it and catch your breath rather than stopping and turning around.

I too got dealt a shit fucking hand in life, but I know I picked this vessel knowing nobody could handle the number of things I went through.

I appreciate the time you took but I believe the opposite of that.

Life fucks some people. It's just the order of things.

[Nostre]

I appreciate the time you took but I believe the opposite of that.

Life fucks some people. It's just the order of things.

I remember being in your exact position and though I cannot say mine was worse, I believe everything in life teaches us a valuable lesson. When you fall asleep tonight and wake up, do it with a smile because there is a child right now in a hospital bed slowly dying wishing they could be home right now in bed.

One day you will look back at this thread and realize how far you’ve come.

[Rionxee]

You need to try ketamine therapy, sounds like you have TRD from what I've gathered from your posts.

[Livewire]

I remember being in your exact position and though I cannot say mine was worse, I believe everything in life teaches us a valuable lesson. When you fall asleep tonight and wake up, do it with a smile because there is a child right now in a hospital bed slowly dying wishing they could be home right now in bed.

One day you will look back at this thread and realize how far you’ve come.

I do like to put things in perspective . I don't like to think I'm worse off than others, but I know what I've been going through is shit..for a long time.

I have this huge thing where I do not want any family members to die before me. I simply couldn't take it.

I'm having trouble with the regular stuff.

If anything big or even medium happen anytime soon.. I'm a goner. That's a promise. My mental health is soo thin. And I don't have the means or resources to strengthen it.

I literally can only be intoxicated enough to tolerate it at this point.

[LeetSpeed]

Damn I hope you find your way though all of this.

[Bastille]

Hey mate,

I’m not gonna lie, and we all agree that life is unfair, starting by me.

I used to do lot of drugs between 18 and 25, went to hospital 2 times because of it, thought about dying several times because of my heart, but one day I decided to make the things different.

Went back to school at 24, started working in IT as a simple help desk guy, and now at 29 I’m moving to cybersecurity after only 4 years working in IT, which is quite good, but after my main job I went back to home and studied almost every night.

The things I want to say are :
- you don’t choose where you start, but you can choose where you go
- if you do the same as the others, you’ll get the same as the others.

Focus above your objectives and you’ll never be disappointed.

That’s maybe not the right time to read this, but keep it somewhere you can go back later to read again when you’ll be in a better mind.

[StuffSneak]

I do agree with you that not everybody is equal. But I believe the perspective to look at that should be everybody is different.

I won't write a whole motivational para or anything but maybe a fresh start at different field might make you feel differently.

Hope you get it resolved.

[jcole]

I'm going through a tough time in my life. This year has been one of the worst I've ever had. Try to stay positive you're a good person Livewire if you ever need to talk hmu..

[Prettykitty]

I feel like that too, hope you keep moving forward. See you around soon.

[Truth]

One great fact about life, is it doesn't matter how bad things get, you could give me your problems, the kid in Africa problems, the homeless crackhead problems, the people in war problems, the whole world problems and times it by 100x while you're at it. The probability of things getting better are still infinitely higher than 0. I would still choose all that over 0.

Because even if the probability of things getting better are the lowest imaginable 0.00....01% its still infinitely higher than 0.

And that is not motivation, that is just reality.

[bevc]

Do you know the Monty Python song 'Always Look on The Bright Side of Life'? (see, I can quote scripture too). There's a lyric in it that I like, which is "Life's a piece of shit, when you look at it." It's true. Life is a piece of shit.

However, I will say one thing, as somebody who has struggled since I was a kid with depression - you will feel different. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not the day after that, but at some point in the future, if you're still here, you will feel different than you do now. You might feel worse, of course, but things will be different, and then they'll be different again. I will also say that it gets easier as you get older. You care less. The pressure changes.

As Winston Churchill said "If you're going through hell, make sure that you keep going." All love and best wishes to you.