Hey guys, I was depressed for months didn't realize it, thought it was the people around me, well, they sent me to a mental hospital for a week (just so i wouldn't kill myself bc of suicidal statements), felt better, week and a half later I was there again because it all went downhill like usual.. well I got out like a week ago from today, and as expected I still want to die.
I don't get bullied/harassed or anything, I'm not poor, I have anything I could ever want, I find no joy or interest in anything, and I still want to die.
I'm sick of living, and I'm sick of asking for help only to be sent back to a mental hospital for a week until I feel happier because of the people around me, then get sent back home only to have everything repeat.
What should I do? Off myself?
If you were going to kill yourself, how would you do it? (Keep in mind, guns are messy, parents/family would be the first to see probably)
Just curious 😊
Really think about what you are doing. You get one life and you just want to give it up.
@The guy commenting about my avatar:
Yeah, it's a funny GIF.
(Mar 7, 2014 12:43 PM)wellager Wrote: DON'T off yourself. Go to sleep.
Wake up and do something you like. I went through this a few weeks ago. You have to find a passion.
I've tried sleeping. Every single night. For months. And every day I wake up, I hate myself more and more. I don't have a passion. My passion was basically anything with computers, I can do basically everything there is to do on a computer, yet I don't even find joy in computers anymore, it's like I stare at my screen questioning why I am still here.
All the activities I use to love, I don't. Even if I try to do them, I hate it. I've tried it all, thought of it all, I don't have any hope for anything really.
And before someone posts saying take anti-depressants, I'm on anti-depressants, they haven't helped.
(Mar 7, 2014 12:49 PM)IanConnor Wrote: @The guy commenting about my avatar:
Yeah, it's a funny GIF.
I've tried sleeping. Every single night. For months. And every day I wake up, I hate myself more and more. I don't have a passion. My passion was basically anything with computers, I can do basically everything there is to do on a computer, yet I don't even find joy in computers anymore, it's like I stare at my screen questioning why I am still here.
All the activities I use to love, I don't. Even if I try to do them, I hate it. I've tried it all, thought of it all, I don't have any hope for anything really.
And before someone posts saying take anti-depressants, I'm on anti-depressants, they haven't helped.
Look into getting a different prescription maybe.
(Mar 7, 2014 12:57 PM)✘OtillweOD Wrote: Stop seeking attention you cock sucking fag.
Go off yourself...we do not need weak-minded punks walking around in society.
Not really seeking attention, more like opinions. This is a hacking forum with the average age of 12, do you think I care about most of you? Haha.
(Mar 7, 2014 12:54 PM)bk randy Wrote: Wow Market you really rather kill yourself and devastate everyone around you just because you're not happy?
Get the fuck outside, I know how you feel but that's selfish as fuck to actually do it. Just let time heal it, it's just hormones n shit, go for walks, find a outdoor hobby, get connected with the beauty around you. I don't know how anybody could go through winter and not just be extremely excited when summer comes up. Even if you don't have anything to do just find something to distract you from being depressed.
I've tried. I've gone outside, I've tried a hobby, it's more than me just "not being happy".. I can live with me being not happy. I'm a narcissist. I'm fucked up.
(Mar 7, 2014 12:53 PM)Dinolino Wrote: I wont tell you to not kill yourself(even though it is kinda stupid to do so, keep on fighting. you will find something to live for).
If you were to off yourself, I would do it with helium. Completely painless
Yep, I agree helium would be the way to go if I don't have access to pills (they locked them all up -_- ), either that or head on crash.
If nothing is fun, go get some weed and relaaax like hell bro.. :) Do something fun really, there MUST be something, go to gym idc, could make u feel better and shit, but really if everything is booring, Smoke a joint bro and just relax.. Take caree m8.
(Mar 7, 2014 12:59 PM)Astral Wrote: Someone recently told me something that helped me a lot. "Life is all about perception; how you view things". View your life differently. You're probably focusing on ALL of your negatives, when you're better than you realize. Think positively, and think about how you can better yourself rather than thinking about ways to bring you deeper into your pain.
If you need to talk, PM me.
I've tried this. I got into buddhism, and lots of self-control things, done lots of packets, and read lots of insightful books.. I know how to focus on positive things, and that helped for a little bit, but then it went back down again. It's like anything I find that helps me, after a day goes downhill and stops helping, and I'm back at stage 1.
(Mar 7, 2014 01:03 PM)Tweekzify Wrote: If nothing is fun, go get some weed and relaaax like hell bro.. :) Do something fun really, there MUST be something, go to gym idc, could make u feel better and shit, but really if everything is booring, Smoke a joint bro and just relax.. Take caree m8.
Again, tried weed. Smoked daily for over two years, and I thought that's why I was depressed, stopped smoking been a few months now, and of course, nothing changed. It helped me keep my mind off negative shit, but being high was the new sober, and I still felt like shit wether I smoked or not.
@The guy yelling at the trash talkers - don't bother lol, it's an internet forum, I don't expect to get sympathy, nor do I expect every person here to believe me, it's understandable people are going to be cocky and promote suicide, but I'm the one who wants to die, so I could care less.
I highly just think that you want attention, enough with stupid ass questions.
(Mar 7, 2014 01:06 PM)nullRoot Wrote: I highly just think that you want attention, enough with stupid ass questions.
![[Image: l08SKZY.jpg]](https://i.imgur.com/l08SKZY.jpg)
Best proof I can give. both of my wrist bands from when I was admitted, and the packet that explains the inpatient. also have a shitload of worksheets and meditation guides n shit >.>
(Mar 7, 2014 01:02 PM)Heulen Wrote: dude....
behave, i know this is the internet but be a bit fucking decent?
I have no patience for weak-minded individuals.
Like I said, OP needs to go off himself.
You probably need to start out fresh. Try some shrooms or lsd and explore your mind. Find a girl or something. Leave wherever you live. Save up money for it.
(Mar 7, 2014 01:30 PM)2008 Wrote: You probably need to start out fresh. Try some shrooms or lsd and explore your mind. Find a girl or something. Leave wherever you live. Save up money for it.
Done my fair share of drugs.
Found the girl of my dreams.
Don't have the money to leave where I live, and even if I did, it would end up much worse most likely.
What do you really want out of life? You are probably seeking spiritual enlightenment, try magic mushrooms, they allow you to access the infinite knowledge of the universe.
OP don't think like that, think about everything you will miss out on, you will not get to start your own family/get a house etc. Life is to valuable to take it from yourself. Have you tried seeing a doctor & getting pills? And I don't think mental hospital is the right name, you're not crazy. Think of your family you will be leaving behind. And a lot of depressed people want attention, so this might be your way. If you need someone to talk to PM me bud.
(Mar 7, 2014 01:30 PM)2008 Wrote: You probably need to start out fresh. Try some shrooms or lsd and explore your mind. Find a girl or something. Leave wherever you live. Save up money for it.
I think you're a dumb ass, don't tell him to do drugs, that can make it worse.
(Mar 7, 2014 01:35 PM)Tracked Wrote: OP don't think like that, think about everything you will miss out on, you will not get to start your own family/get a house etc. Life is to valuable to take it from yourself. Have you tried seeing a doctor & getting pills? And I don't think mental hospital is the right name, you're not crazy. Think of your family you will be leaving behind. And a lot of depressed people want attention, so this might be your way. If you need someone to talk to PM me bud.
I think you're a dumb ass, don't tell him to do drugs, that can make it worse.
Talking doesn't work, I've tried. I've tried pills. And yes, I've gotten into drugs, and back out, didn't help. I mean yeah, I would love to have a family and all of that, but the thing is I wouldn't care about having a family if I'm dead. I wouldn't have any worries if I was just dead and its hard for me to not think like that. Like, society is also shit, why would I want to risk spending 10 years with a girl and having kids and getting married, only to find out she cheats on me and then I'm alone with kids... I'd rather kill myself than risk that happening.
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