how are you my mans.. this fine day??
I need to stop being lazy in the morning.
takes me a while to leave bed, then i leave it and im still not doing anything for a while.
i usually really wake up after i eat and drink coffee (that said, i cant eat and drink it too early or i will feel bad)
being honest i dont understand why this happens, coffee mustve dumbed my natural dopamine generation system.
And so I dont feel full of life when I wake up, exactly for this reason.
what I feel is something like a sense of uncertainly, a sense of laziness, and a feeling of lacking a clear path.
thats because for good or for bad at some point ive started considering my life and everything I do very intensively.
I question everything, i question everyone, and I question myself
because if you think about it, life is just one, live about 80 years, then game over start over (actually not)
that said from biological point of view life means nothing and after you billions of billions of new lives will come
so it doesnt matter if your job is not perfect, it doesnt matter if your girl is not perfect, it doesnt matter if you are not perfect
it doesnt matter if you dont become elon musk or bill gates or whatever
of course im still motivated because ambition is my second nature, however these thoughts sometimes enter my mind
that said i seriously need to clean my room.... also to make a habit of starting a day from shower..
so how are you my mans in this fine day?
I need to stop being lazy in the morning.
takes me a while to leave bed, then i leave it and im still not doing anything for a while.
i usually really wake up after i eat and drink coffee (that said, i cant eat and drink it too early or i will feel bad)
being honest i dont understand why this happens, coffee mustve dumbed my natural dopamine generation system.
And so I dont feel full of life when I wake up, exactly for this reason.
what I feel is something like a sense of uncertainly, a sense of laziness, and a feeling of lacking a clear path.
thats because for good or for bad at some point ive started considering my life and everything I do very intensively.
I question everything, i question everyone, and I question myself
because if you think about it, life is just one, live about 80 years, then game over start over (actually not)
that said from biological point of view life means nothing and after you billions of billions of new lives will come
so it doesnt matter if your job is not perfect, it doesnt matter if your girl is not perfect, it doesnt matter if you are not perfect
it doesnt matter if you dont become elon musk or bill gates or whatever
of course im still motivated because ambition is my second nature, however these thoughts sometimes enter my mind
that said i seriously need to clean my room.... also to make a habit of starting a day from shower..
so how are you my mans in this fine day?