[SIM-4832624]

WAIT!! Here me out..

I was wondering if there is an actual method out there for someone like me at this stage in life. I'm on the verge of ending everything in life.
I'd like to know if there's a method that actually works without extra upfront money.
Because I've been hesitant about all the other stuff here since you need hundreds of other dollars to do these things.
Yet, I only have like $40 on me.. If I can't find anything on here, I'm just going to end everything..
I have a pacemaker at 23, overweight, can't get a job with only a GED and limited ability to carry heavy things.
Because of the device next to my heart, I have been jobless for over 5 years. Can't even become a cashier without sweating my balls off standing for 8 hours straight.

I'm literally an utter failure.. I used to play football when I was 14-15. But everything changed after my pacemaker at 16. Completely ruined my football career and going to college.
I dropped out when I was 17, and got my GED the following year just so I don't get discriminated against by employers seeing me being utter shitty overweight fat fuck who couldn't even finish high school.
Literally about to cry right now.. This is too depressing. I taught my brothers everything I know about football. They have 1st place trophies and medals in the living room and in their room to prove it.
But my younger brother stopped and went more into the gaming/streaming career only being 12. And my 17 year old brother stopped football and decided to play basketball since last year.
I'm not big on basketball, but every single guy in my family tree are into it. So they teach him and he plays basketball with his friends and other friends from a different high school, our cousins and
our mom's cousins who are our around my age. I'm just not into it anymore after I sprained my wrist for 3 weeks during the Spring when I was 14 during P.E. freshman year(after football season).
Ever since then, I can't shoot for shit anymore. I have to angle it a bit differently now just to shoot like a normal person. Jesus Christ.. I've been given the shitty straw in life. Don't feel sorry for me though.

I'm only lucky because my parents love me very much. But I feel like a burden to them.
Even if I'm not, I need my own money and I hate asking them to buy this and that at my age and still have to wait a few weeks or 2 months to get what I want.
I just need my own income, you know...? I'm just tired of everything...
I don't know what to do at this point.
Don't worry. I don't need any type of counseling or therapy.. I just need a way to make money here at home and then
everything will be okay. But without any income to buy my own things and pay some money to my parents, even though they don't ask for it. I just feel completely useless in life.
And like I said, I can't even do basic shitty jobs because I'll either pass out or would be too much for me to handle. I can't lose weight that easily.

How fucking funny is it that not only had I was given these shitty obstacles in life, but I also have a slow metabolism. Like seriously slow. I can eat a normal sized burger and gain 2 fucking pounds.
It would take 3 days just to lose it without physical activity. Whilst I have a cousin and my brothers who can eat x5 that amount, and they actually do, but lose it in just a few hours just doing nothing but shit it all out.

Like wtf, God? If my life was a video game, the game devs gave my character a fucking shitty skill called, "slow-metabolism +500". Oh, and funny thing. All 3 are fast as fuck runners. I am too.. but obviously not anymore and yet no fast-metabolism..
I used to be a lineman and I worked my ass after sophomore football season to work on my body and become bulky to play linebacker. But nah.. the fucking universe stuck their cosmic fingers up my ass and decided to give me surgery years later.

My life has just been one big fucking rollercoaster of shittiness. If only I didn't have this pacemaker, or AT LEAST be able to carry 50 pounds and walk around for 8 hours a day. I would have never been here.
I would have gotten my shitty life straight, worked my ass off to lose weight and work with my cousins and dad in a cheese factory. Holy shit!! They make $17 lowest there..
My dad makes like $25 and one of my cousin is making $30 something. They have one of the best jobs in their life for what they get paid and they actually love it. We have other family members there and they go on company vacations eating out barbecues, jet ski, canoeing, etc..

I'd be down for that too, but fuck man.. Doctors be saying I'll die because of cold temperature and having to stand for more than 5 hours per day. I just have a cycle of crap in my life. My mom tried to get me in as a receptionist through my aunt who works in a dental office.
But I didn't get it.. Fuck!! Even a job where I sit down, take calls, and be on the computer all day.. I couldn't even fucking get.. How useless am I? lol

So please, if anyone knows some methods that works here and I can make some good income without having to pay some extra upfront money, please let me know.
That way I can spend the money I do have now to go and start making some basic income. If you there is nothing like that here..
Then, I'll just end it now after a week of waiting for responses or get a job and most likely end up being hospitalized because of my health condition.
And no, I don't get any special benefits or income from the government. I'm practically homeless right now if it wasn't for my parents. Thank you if you have read this far.

[Divine Intellect]

LMFAO im laughing my ass off right now thank you bro

[SIM-4832624]

LMFAO im laughing my ass off right now thank you bro

No problem, dude. I'm not joking, btw. I'm legit serious. I'm about to have tears come out my eyes and my heart is fluttering. I knew there was a high chance many will see this and either not take me seriously, don't give a crap or reply and laugh at me. But it's whatever.

I learned to live with my fucked up life for the past 7 years ever since I turned 16. I'm just here hoping someone can help me out make some money before I decide to end it all. Still holding on to whatever hope I have left before I end myself.

Kinda sucks I might do it 2 weeks before my mom's birthday. And what makes it worse is I would have ended my life a month before my grandaunt's unexpected death by a stomach virus while she was on vacation to the Philippines. The best time to end it all is middle of September. But I kinda missed that deadline lol. And I'm not looking forward to waiting almost another year for September to come by. So yeah.. that's my story. If you have or know a method that works in my situation, I'd be grateful with a million stars thrown at you. But, if not. It's cool... You're not obligated to let me in on the secret.

[tsuki]

I'd like to know if there's a method that actually works without extra upfront money.
Because I've been hesitant about all the other stuff here since you need hundreds of other dollars to do these things.

Yet, I only have like $40 on me.. If I can't find anything on here, I'm just going to end everything..
I have a pacemaker at 23, overweight, can't get a job with only a GED and limited ability to carry heavy things.
Because of the device next to my heart, I have been jobless for over 5 years. Can't even become a cashier without sweating my balls off standing for 8 hours straight.

Your life still isn't terrible in comparison to the rest of the world. Millions of Americans are unemployed and have families to feed, and the ones who are employed tend to live paycheck to paycheck and even the smallest medical bill or unfortunate event could ruin their entire lives. And America is still in a pretty good place compared to the rest of the world, such as many third world countries.

I don't say that to downplay your issues/problems, but to emphasize that you're not alone and that you're not a "failure" because it's quite normal to be in your position. You're not homeless or disabled. You have food, shelter, a loving family, access to the internet, and so many other things. What you need to do is start having a more optimistic view of life and appreciating the good things that you do have.

How fugging funny is it that not only had I was given these shitty obstacles in life, but I also have a slow metabolism. Like seriously slow. I can eat a normal sized burger and gain 2 fugging pounds.
It would take 3 days just to lose it without physical activity. Whilst I have a cousin and my brothers who can eat x5 that amount, and they actually do, but lose it in just a few hours just doing nothing but shit it all out.

Like wtf, God? If my life was a video game, the game devs gave my character a fugging shitty skill called, "slow-metabolism +500". Oh, and funny thing. All 3 are fast as fugg runners. I am too.. but obviously not anymore and yet no fast-metabolism..

You wouldn't gain 2 pounds from eating a burger, unless the burger was 7000 calories.

Everyone's metabolism pretty much operates the same way. Have you tried calculating your BMR and eating below your projected daily calorie loss? As long as you eat less calories than your BMR, you don't need to exercise to lose weight.

So please, if anyone knows some methods that works here and I can make some good income without having to pay some extra upfront money, please let me know.

Look into careers that don't require physical effort, such as graphic design, web design, programming, technical writing, medical coding, etc., but there are many other jobs where you just sit all day or barely move.

Yes, it will take work and lots of studying, but everyone else also has to go through the same process. I'd recommend looking into your local community college and the programs they have. Find something that interests you and work towards it everyday for as long as it takes without quitting.

[znc]

Your best option would be to learn a digital skill. You have a lot of time on your hands and should find something that interests you. There are many ways to make a living with such skills. Freelance, start an agency, and so forth.

Some skills: Graphic design, video editing, web design, digital marketing, programming, and so forth.

They are easy to learn for 100% free online using various resources. If you need help or pointed in the right direction, feel free to message me or add me on Discord: znc#4466

If you do decide to begin learning a skill, feel free to contact me and let me know. I might be able to come up with some creative ways to make money with them, or I'll point you in the right direction as to where to begin with the typical path of making money with them.

Don't end your life. Everything will get better. People love you.

[SIM-4832624]

Honestly guys. Thank you for all this. But as I have said, it's been over 5 whole long years that I've NEVER had a job. I've looked into everything that I could try doing and potentially do. I'm just not cut out for anything like this.

Not good with art drawing, I'm good with finance, but don't have the test scores to get into business, and I suck at programming. Tried all of them since I was 16 and even went to my Community College to try and enroll there. Total bust.. Tried to get into programming and business.. i ultimately failed without a doubt.

I was like 19-20 when I went there and I saw classmates who were in high school with me, but were there for their last year of college while I was just barely enrolling. Some noticed me, most that I talked to during my 8th grade, freshman and sophomore years when I knew everyone(i talked a lot and was pretty popular back then) before I was 16,  pretty much acted like they didn't just pass by me. I got ghosted...

Only ones who really said hey to me were my old football mates and a few close friends I talked anime and video games a lot with. And also 2 cheerleaders, but they were just the nicer ones while the rest were total bitches or keep to themselves kind of person.

It's not that I'm stupid or anything. I just know a lot of things here and there, but never really know most of a specific subject to actually make money off of..

All I do is play games and figure out what I can do in life. I can't even learn to speak other languages.. My mother tongue is Bisaya (filipino).
I've tried YEARS to practice anything and everything I could think of. I'm more cut out for construction work and labor job.. But that requires lifting heavy loads, which my physical and medical condition prevents me from doing. About the burger.. I was talking about the double Bacon King from Burger King lol. My bad.. I didn't explain that thoroughly.

My bio-dad was a boxer. In fact, my entire bio-dad's side are fighters, boxers and even know Manny Pacquiao from the Philippines and sparred with him.. one of my uncles used to train Manny in the past.. But, I never met any of them since all are in the Phillipines and I'm from California.. Born and raised.. My dad right now is my step-dad since I was 4 years. I don't call him my step-dad. Just dad.

And lastly.. I've been learning and desperately been trying to learn how to whistle since I was 10 years old. My brother who was 4 years old at the time took him about 3 days to do it. As for me, 13 years later and I still stuck at it.

I'm just not able to do what others can. I'm more of like a physical worker bee who lifts and drives stuff for money. Which is all I'm good for in this world. I think I'm just going to give up at this point..

My mom just gave me her debit card that she loaded $40 on. It's for Netflix and $20 for me. I kind of have $60 now lol.. The rest are just leftovers for her to reload again or buy from starbucks/burger king later on.

See what I'm saying?? I'm an utter fucking failure.. During dinner, I just eat my food and go to my room while my dad tells stories with the family. Yeah.. I actually have tears in my eyes now. Took a deep breath just now too.  Wiped my tears on my sleeve just now.

Yeah, I'm not lying. Just saying how a completely nuisance I am to this world and my family. If my parents kicked me out right now. I'd be asking people for money. If I tried to work, I'd be dead before I even get my first paycheck in a month from then.

I've tried everything guys..

Message me to show you my depressing text I sent to my mom and what she replied back with. I was literally asking her for $11 and if I could work with my dad. Then I asked if I could get $20 instead. Mind you to remember that I'm 23 and it's just a sad life. So please someone, help me out with what I can buy here to make some cash flow...

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Your best option would be to learn a digital skill. You have a lot of time on your hands and should find something that interests you. There are many ways to make a living with such skills. Freelance, start an agency, and so forth.

Some skills: Graphic design, video editing, web design, digital marketing, programming, and so forth.

They are easy to learn for 100% free online using various resources. If you need help or pointed in the right direction, feel free to message me or add me on Discord: znc#4466

If you do decide to begin learning a skill, feel free to contact me and let me know. I might be able to come up with some creative ways to make money with them, or I'll point you in the right direction as to where to begin with the typical path of making money with them.

Don't end your life. Everything will get better. People love you.

Thanks. Your message actually made me cry right now. I don't know if I'll have the gut right now or soon to try and message you other than this comment right now. It will just be too overwhelming for me currently. But I'll think about it. I appreciate you having read and doing all this for a random person like me.

[tsuki]

Honestly guys. Thank you for all this. But as I have said, it's been over 5 whole long years that I've NEVER had a job. I've looked into everything that I could try doing and potentially do. I'm just not cut out for anything like this.

You're only 23. A lot of people live with their family and don't have a job until they're in their late 20s or early 30s.

And why would you want to work a labor job anyway? You have more potential than that.

Not good with art drawing. I'm good with finance, but don't have the test scores to get into business, and I suck at programming. Tried all of them since I was 16 and even went to my Community College to try and enroll there. Total bust.. Tried to get into programming and business.. i ultimately failed without a doubt.

Because you never studied or weren't committed enough. How bad do you want it?

As for everything else, I don't think HF is the best or safest place to pour out your life story and all of your feelings. A therapist would be far better for that - not to imply that you need help, but most therapists are great at listening if you want to get things off your chest.

[Kaxon]

This sounds like a conversation you should have with your parents instead of some anons on HF. They know you best and can help give you a consistent stream of new ideas once they see how important this is to you.

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If I were you, I'd maybe give Twitch streaming a shot. I'm sure there are others like you that would love to know they aren't alone. Donations could support you in time.

[SIM-4832624]

So it seems like I fucked up bad. The methods for a thread I spent my money on apparently needs investments first. And I can't get a refund. I was hoping Vyrez. would make an exception for me. But I guess not..

I'm sorry everyone. But I'm done with life. I'm broke. I spent a few days getting that money and now I have nothing. The rest of my money are just a few bucks on coinbase and it's like $2.

I'm literally in depression and tipping point to offing myself. I'm just done with life. I fucked up bad. I wish I had bought a different thread to make money that doesn't need investments other than time itself.. Instead I bought this.. FUCK!!!!!!!! I'm such a fucking piece of shit failure!!!! Goodbye. And sorry I couldn't be around to be alive to those who tried to prevent me from killing myself.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know how I could fucn up this bad in life. I'm better off dead then having my parents continue providing for me.

[tsuki]

I wish I had bought a different thread to make money that doesn't need investments other than time itself..

Have you not read anything we said?

You don't need money to study and build a skill. Only time and dedication. There are no shortcuts or get-rich-quick schemes. Stop wasting your money on ebooks and go study.

[Phil Swift 47]

So it seems like I fugged up bad. The methods for a thread I spent my money on apparently needs investments first. And I can't get a refund. I was hoping Vyrez. would make an exception for me. But I guess not..

I'm sorry everyone. But I'm done with life. I'm broke. I spent a few days getting that money and now I have nothing. The rest of my money are just a few bucks on coinbase and it's like $2.

I'm literally in depression and tipping point to offing myself. I'm just done with life. I fugged up bad. I wish I had bought a different thread to make money that doesn't need investments other than time itself.. Instead I bought this.. fugg!!!!!!!! I'm such a fugging piece of shit failure!!!! Goodbye. And sorry I couldn't be around to be alive to those who tried to prevent me from killing myself.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know how I could fucn up this bad in life. I'm better off dead then having my parents continue providing for me.

Man I'm 20, Lost my job in august... Depression, Low pay and the amount of walking i did I'm skin and bone's like I'm serious.... I work for free most times, I work for an amazing adult model.... she's from the country of Georgia I'm from the US, I don't get paid but i know someone is going to get cocky with me after I file a DMCA report time and time again, so I'm learning Legal as i go about filing a DMCA Report.... it's not a fast skill to learn but it pays Really well once you sue them for copyright infringement.... OFC Both me and her are not walking away with as much as her studio will but still a good chunk of cash per case... and trust me they'll never end. Oh i should mention she's 19 with 300k followers on the website... 24.5k on IG, so she's not small (height yeah she's 5' 4" But she has a lot of energy and is quite nice but say or do something wrong and she'll become a polar opposite). She's been amazing despite my looks.... she knows what i am and what i can do. All i had to do was a little research after someone said something... I said something and Now i got a nice job. Can't wait to find one of the idiots who is hosting the content because I'm suing. up to $250,000 and 5 years per count.... it's going to be amazing.

However despite being autistic, bullied, threatened and beat (Physically, Mentally and Emotionally) I refuse to give up. Why? It's because it proves to people I'm strong and I'm capable of anything i put my mind too. Depression is hard but it's just a small nail in the coffin keep pushing your way through and you won't be digging a larger grave.

All the legal information I've learned has been free and I've made awesome connections with her and other models.... More money i guess.

[SysAdmin]

So it seems like I fugged up bad. The methods for a thread I spent my money on apparently needs investments first. And I can't get a refund. I was hoping Vyrez. would make an exception for me. But I guess not..

I'm sorry everyone. But I'm done with life. I'm broke. I spent a few days getting that money and now I have nothing. The rest of my money are just a few bucks on coinbase and it's like $2.

I'm literally in depression and tipping point to offing myself. I'm just done with life. I fugged up bad. I wish I had bought a different thread to make money that doesn't need investments other than time itself.. Instead I bought this.. fugg!!!!!!!! I'm such a fugging piece of shit failure!!!! Goodbye. And sorry I couldn't be around to be alive to those who tried to prevent me from killing myself.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know how I could fucn up this bad in life. I'm better off dead then having my parents continue providing for me.

Why would you drop 40$ on a money making method when it's clear that it either requires investment or it's just straight out bait? Never trust anyone on these forums.

Going back to your original post, you "didn't get a job as a receptionist" once, did you try applying for another one? I'm pretty sure there's not just one company looking for receptionists or other jobs that would not require you to walk around and do shit for 8 straight hours.

If you can't get a job due to your condition, why are you not getting anything from the government as a substitute? Seeing as you've clearly been to the doctors and they do not allow you to work in certain conditions, you should either get dispatched to jobs that you CAN do, or get a substitute payment due to your conditions.

Nobody cares if you can whistle or not, there a ton of people that never learned how to or straight out can't whistle.

Depression is a shitty thing and your post is essentially depression in a nutshell. Since you're having thoughts about suicide, you should seek help from a therapist. Things are not as dark as you make them out to be, you are not a burden to your parents, I'm pretty sure that they are well aware of your situation and are just trying to help. Otherwise, they wouldn't wait this long to kick you out.

Kaxon has a great idea with streaming on Twitch, start out small, stream playing your favorite games, people will help you out and donate if you just make the stream entertaining enough.

Tl;dr: You're not living the shittiest life imaginable, there's people that have it far worse than you. Atleast you have a home to go to and parents that still support you.

[hottnickles]

WAIT!! Here me out..

I was wondering if there is an actual method out there for someone like me at this stage in life. I'm on the verge of ending everything in life.
I'd like to know if there's a method that actually works without extra upfront money.
Because I've been hesitant about all the other stuff here since you need hundreds of other dollars to do these things.
Yet, I only have like $40 on me.. If I can't find anything on here, I'm just going to end everything..
I have a pacemaker at 23, overweight, can't get a job with only a GED and limited ability to carry heavy things.
Because of the device next to my heart, I have been jobless for over 5 years. Can't even become a cashier without sweating my balls off standing for 8 hours straight.

I'm literally an utter failure.. I used to play football when I was 14-15. But everything changed after my pacemaker at 16. Completely ruined my football career and going to college.
I dropped out when I was 17, and got my GED the following year just so I don't get discriminated against by employers seeing me being utter shitty overweight fat fugg who couldn't even finish high school.
Literally about to cry right now.. This is too depressing. I taught my brothers everything I know about football. They have 1st place trophies and medals in the living room and in their room to prove it.
But my younger brother stopped and went more into the gaming/streaming career only being 12. And my 17 year old brother stopped football and decided to play basketball since last year.
I'm not big on basketball, but every single guy in my family tree are into it. So they teach him and he plays basketball with his friends and other friends from a different high school, our cousins and
our mom's cousins who are our around my age. I'm just not into it anymore after I sprained my wrist for 3 weeks during the Spring when I was 14 during P.E. freshman year(after football season).
Ever since then, I can't shoot for shit anymore. I have to angle it a bit differently now just to shoot like a normal person. Jesus Christ.. I've been given the shitty straw in life. Don't feel sorry for me though.

I'm only lucky because my parents love me very much. But I feel like a burden to them.
Even if I'm not, I need my own money and I hate asking them to buy this and that at my age and still have to wait a few weeks or 2 months to get what I want.
I just need my own income, you know...? I'm just tired of everything...
I don't know what to do at this point.
Don't worry. I don't need any type of counseling or therapy.. I just need a way to make money here at home and then
everything will be okay. But without any income to buy my own things and pay some money to my parents, even though they don't ask for it. I just feel completely useless in life.
And like I said, I can't even do basic shitty jobs because I'll either pass out or would be too much for me to handle. I can't lose weight that easily.

How fugging funny is it that not only had I was given these shitty obstacles in life, but I also have a slow metabolism. Like seriously slow. I can eat a normal sized burger and gain 2 fugging pounds.
It would take 3 days just to lose it without physical activity. Whilst I have a cousin and my brothers who can eat x5 that amount, and they actually do, but lose it in just a few hours just doing nothing but shit it all out.

Like wtf, God? If my life was a video game, the game devs gave my character a fugging shitty skill called, "slow-metabolism +500". Oh, and funny thing. All 3 are fast as fugg runners. I am too.. but obviously not anymore and yet no fast-metabolism..
I used to be a lineman and I worked my ass after sophomore football season to work on my body and become bulky to play linebacker. But nah.. the fugging universe stuck their cosmic fingers up my ass and decided to give me surgery years later.

My life has just been one big fugging rollercoaster of shittiness. If only I didn't have this pacemaker, or AT LEAST be able to carry 50 pounds and walk around for 8 hours a day. I would have never been here.
I would have gotten my shitty life straight, worked my ass off to lose weight and work with my cousins and dad in a cheese factory. Holy shit!! They make $17 lowest there..
My dad makes like $25 and one of my cousin is making $30 something. They have one of the best jobs in their life for what they get paid and they actually love it. We have other family members there and they go on company vacations eating out barbecues, jet ski, canoeing, etc..

I'd be down for that too, but fugg man.. Doctors be saying I'll die because of cold temperature and having to stand for more than 5 hours per day. I just have a cycle of crap in my life. My mom tried to get me in as a receptionist through my aunt who works in a dental office.
But I didn't get it.. fugg!! Even a job where I sit down, take calls, and be on the computer all day.. I couldn't even fugging get.. How useless am I? lol

So please, if anyone knows some methods that works here and I can make some good income without having to pay some extra upfront money, please let me know.
That way I can spend the money I do have now to go and start making some basic income. If you there is nothing like that here..
Then, I'll just end it now after a week of waiting for responses or get a job and most likely end up being hospitalized because of my health condition.
And no, I don't get any special benefits or income from the government. I'm practically homeless right now if it wasn't for my parents. Thank you if you have read this far.

bro you have photoshop skills ?

[3xploit]

Forget that ewhoring shit and money making ebooks, you will probably not be able to generate a stable income (most of the ebooks on this forum are scams imo). Invest time in learning how to code or graphics design for example. Using public resources like stackoverflow or youtube you can learn pretty much everything in programming without having to invest money.

[Dolla$]

To be honest my dude, if you believe that buying an E-books will make you rich this is a mistake. :)
I'm not saying that you won't make money with : E-Whoring, Scamming (don't it's bad), Carding or whatever but you need to consider that if people use to sell those methods it's for a reasons.

Only ways to make good money is by being innovative.